TODAY'S TO-DO LIST

• 1500 Words for science on whether Intelligent Design should be taught in science class in school, 500 words apiece for each of three arguments - due Monday 1500 words is a laugh. I'll be lucky if I broke 1200.
• Journal Reflection (probably Stratford-Upon-Avon) - due Tuesday
• Study for English midterm - due Monday
•  Research for Humanities paper and hopefully a working outline, as I'm traveling five days this week and won't have time to do it then - due Wednesday the 14th
• Research for Fine Arts Paper - Due Date Unknown
• Travel Plans for Ireland - before Tuesday
• RP posting for: Rosette (journal), Envy (x2), Sylar, Vexen (journal, find a log), Flonne, the Prinny Squad, Death
• Make packing list for Italy - before Tuesday

Things will be struck out as I get them done. If I get them done.

Yeeeeeeeeah.

...-_-

So it's three in the morning.

And for some strange reason, I'm upset NOT over the fact that I barely got anything done today, but that I feel I'm not involved in Template.

Yep. It's the little fish-big pond thing again.

I mean, I shouldn't be surprised, as I could barely keep up with Paixao this week (and I still owe some people posts, sorry folks! I have science class tomorrow, I'll get them done then) and Template moves quite a bit faster than Paixao does. Still, I've got a total of one character there (because that's about all I can keep up with, what with its speed), and it feels like I just can't get her involved - it always just comes off to me as an outsider-looking-in feeling. Between classes and time zone differences, I'm always about two days behind and eight hours off, and I'll be amazed if I have time for RP at all in the next three weeks or so, what with all the traveling and such I intend to do. (Italy for five days starting this Wednesday, for example.) I want to be involved, and I can't expect people to involve me if I'm not making the effort, but...darn it, getting eaten by life precludes RP effort. I feel upset that I'm not involved, then I realize that's being selfish since I'm not making the effort, then I feel bad for being selfish AND for not making the effort, and then I find myself upset that I'm not more involved and the damn cycle starts all over again.

Understatement time: it sucks.

And it also doesn't help that I keep calling Template Econtra. I don't mean to, I just bloody do. This is either one hell of a Freudian slip, or I'm just damn tired.

I think the long and short of this post is, it's three in the morning, I'm exhausted, and I'm rambling about something I'm not quite sure I can fix given my schedule.

Fun stuff.