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So. Lots of stuff going on. Per usual.
Now that current events are over...
I just got plotbunnied again. Why do I want to do a Pendragon/Tsubasa/KHII crossover when I haven't finished KHII, don't have my Tsubasa manga with me for reference, and haven't read Pendragon for about a year? ...because I want to, that's why. And I can always get Pendragon from Amazon.com. ^^
I'll just put that on the list right behind Crosshairs. And Otouto. And everything else I need to write. ^^;
Switching subjects...
Oh my God, I think I'm turning emo. I'm stopping the wangst here before I hurt myself. o.o
I went laser tagging for the first time in months. Di, Becky, Laura - you all ROCK. That was such a blast. I still think we need to find a Laser Quest out here, though - they do laser tag better than anybody else. (I'm not a fan of mandatory team games, especially when you can kill your own team. Okay, what's the point with that one?)
Then we went to Mel's diner, which is like Gunther Toody's with a different name - a 50's diner. I've never had a Black and White before - I need to get those more often. WOOOOOWWWW are they good. (But I also need to keep on the lookout for the Freshman 25, so not too often, I guess.) Last night, in short, was awesome.
And I won an Advent Children poster at PJACS (the campus anime club). Oh, HELL yes. I just need to hang it now. (Icing on the cake, teheh. :D)
My interview for my International Program application was this morning. If all goes well, I may be going to London fall semester. That would ROCK. :D
Di's coming by in a bit. We're going to make a gingerbread house. I haven't done that in years, and I'm really looking forward to it. :)
Then we went to Mel's diner, which is like Gunther Toody's with a different name - a 50's diner. I've never had a Black and White before - I need to get those more often. WOOOOOWWWW are they good. (But I also need to keep on the lookout for the Freshman 25, so not too often, I guess.) Last night, in short, was awesome.
And I won an Advent Children poster at PJACS (the campus anime club). Oh, HELL yes. I just need to hang it now. (Icing on the cake, teheh. :D)
My interview for my International Program application was this morning. If all goes well, I may be going to London fall semester. That would ROCK. :D
Di's coming by in a bit. We're going to make a gingerbread house. I haven't done that in years, and I'm really looking forward to it. :)
Now that current events are over...
I just got plotbunnied again. Why do I want to do a Pendragon/Tsubasa/KHII crossover when I haven't finished KHII, don't have my Tsubasa manga with me for reference, and haven't read Pendragon for about a year? ...because I want to, that's why. And I can always get Pendragon from Amazon.com. ^^
I'll just put that on the list right behind Crosshairs. And Otouto. And everything else I need to write. ^^;
I'm going crazy out here with the lack of intellectual stimulation. I know, I'm at college, I shouldn't be having that problem, right?
Wrong. I'm an International Baccalaureate graduate. I'm used to higher-level, complex thinking and debating and writing, with plenty of analyzed textual evidence to support my point. All this GE crap is driving me up the wall. The closest I've gotten to an IB paper was my in-class essay on the development of Luna Lovegood's character in the Harry Potter series yesterday (which I didn't even get to finish. 75 minutes is not a long enough amount of time to look for text support in over 1300 pages of material and write a good analytical paper, darn it). The closest I got to a good intellectually stimulating debate was the debate I had with Lynx about Nobodies and hearts (inspired by this rant).
When did my fandoms get to be more IB than my classes themselves? The Harry Potter essay was like English class (albiet with an easier grading system and simpler material), and debating with Lynx was like being in Theory of Knowledge class again. All the rest of my classes are just lecture lecture lecture with a tad bit of rote memorization thrown in. GIVE ME A CHALLENGE!
I swear, I'm getting into a Literature class next semester. I don't care what I have to do, I'm getting in. I got a 6 on my IB English exam, for goodness' sake. Give me a piece of lit and a prompt and I will blow your freaking mind. Just give me the chance to do something smart for a change, instead of mindlessly taking notes and memorizing stuff I won't need to know after two weeks from now.
*sigh*
Wrong. I'm an International Baccalaureate graduate. I'm used to higher-level, complex thinking and debating and writing, with plenty of analyzed textual evidence to support my point. All this GE crap is driving me up the wall. The closest I've gotten to an IB paper was my in-class essay on the development of Luna Lovegood's character in the Harry Potter series yesterday (which I didn't even get to finish. 75 minutes is not a long enough amount of time to look for text support in over 1300 pages of material and write a good analytical paper, darn it). The closest I got to a good intellectually stimulating debate was the debate I had with Lynx about Nobodies and hearts (inspired by this rant).
When did my fandoms get to be more IB than my classes themselves? The Harry Potter essay was like English class (albiet with an easier grading system and simpler material), and debating with Lynx was like being in Theory of Knowledge class again. All the rest of my classes are just lecture lecture lecture with a tad bit of rote memorization thrown in. GIVE ME A CHALLENGE!
I swear, I'm getting into a Literature class next semester. I don't care what I have to do, I'm getting in. I got a 6 on my IB English exam, for goodness' sake. Give me a piece of lit and a prompt and I will blow your freaking mind. Just give me the chance to do something smart for a change, instead of mindlessly taking notes and memorizing stuff I won't need to know after two weeks from now.
*sigh*
Switching subjects...
I've been feeling kind of...I don't know, weird lately. It's like I have all these cool friends who can do these amazing things, and I have nothing to contribute. Can't draw, can't write (at least, not the way I want to), can't dance (again, not the way I want to)...Jack of all trades, master of none, I suppose. I just feel kind of like I'm a hanger-on. Every once in a while I'll say something witty, everybody laughs, and then the daily life continues and I go back to...well, hangering-on, I guess. Something like that.
I don't know what's going on, really. I think I just want to feel like I'm good at something. Not "yeah, I can do that, that's fun," but "yeah, that's my thing. I own you all at that thing." I guess I just want a "thing."
I feel like I'm starting to irritate people. I'm the one who'll call and try to make plans for something somewhere sometime. I don't know if I'm ticking people off or what, because I know they'll never tell me to my face. After all, you're not "supposed" to do that - it's socially unacceptable.
*sigh*
I don't know what's going on, really. I think I just want to feel like I'm good at something. Not "yeah, I can do that, that's fun," but "yeah, that's my thing. I own you all at that thing." I guess I just want a "thing."
I feel like I'm starting to irritate people. I'm the one who'll call and try to make plans for something somewhere sometime. I don't know if I'm ticking people off or what, because I know they'll never tell me to my face. After all, you're not "supposed" to do that - it's socially unacceptable.
*sigh*
Oh my God, I think I'm turning emo. I'm stopping the wangst here before I hurt myself. o.o
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I had a great time hanging out yesterday and it has been awesome getting to know you this past month (can you believe it’s already been that long?). I just wanted to write you a note because I think you briefly touched on this topic yesterday, and for some reason or another we got distracted from it.
I’ll just say in regards to your wangst that I know how it is to get a bit down on yourself. It is aggravating when everyone around you seems to have their talent/gift figured out, but just remember that it’s not important how big your talent/gift is. Having what appears to be less of a talent in comparison to someone else does not make you less of a person. All that matters is that you find something that is important to you and you give it your all. You will get to that point Katie. You will get your “thing.” It’s just a longer journey for some people, and it requires throwing your hat in the ring and trying different opportunities to see where you fit best.
Oh, and speaking of your humor, I will just say that I walk away from our conversations and time together smiling internally. I think the best way to describe it is comparing you to those people that brighten a room upon entering it. I find that while a lot of people can brighten a room when they enter, they take the same light away when they leave. Your humor is not temporary as you say, and I feel that is such a rarity. I’ve only known you for the better part of a month and I’ve already seen this. Think how much more you will learn about yourself.
Di
PS- how dare you cheat on me with Liz who had only dated me for a day. This means war, and I think it will best be settled over some more apple cider. Just you wait, f00!
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*feels kind of dumb for sucking at literature*
Laser Quest does equal win. We should have a Laser Quest party when you come back for Thanksgiving. :D
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(Don't feel bad. I'm just weird in that I like it that much. XD;)
YES. We TOTALLY should.
And I'll be able to DRIVE.From:
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[I've learned that if you go down there on a weekday night, you can bring just your friends and you'll have the place ALL to yourself. I love it. XD]
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Aw, thanks...*huggles back*