It has been a few crazy days.

[kiaxet]

I'm talking about RP wank, of course.

Of course, if you want to get more to it, it was really fandomsecrets wank, but then again that's not all that common.

Yes, I'm talking about the crazy wank that happened over the past three days or so over the Econtra secret that got posted. I should never have gotten involved, really. My problem is, I just want to be involved in everything. There's a little voice in the back of my head that goes, "Pay attention to MEEEEEEEEEE!" and I tend to let it come out to play way too often. It's one of the reasons I never felt at home in Econtra, why I'm still having spots of trouble at Template (as evinced, in combination with recent RL events, by my lack of activity), and why I'm so at home in Paixao (small fish in big pond vs. big fish in small pond). But that's enough of me being self-absorbed.

I have to admit, I did enjoy parts of it. Some of the comments I got back just made me laugh even though they were serious, and I did enjoy it when somebody reworded my argument against her without refuting it, simply making it sound worse. Even better was when one of her defenders jumped in the fray, seemingly without reading the thread beforehand. Much lulz were had by me and my wonderful roomie, who has the best verbal anthology of one-word comments ever.

Another part of me was, of course, unbelievably angry. Quite a few of my friends were mercilessly badmouthed and insulted, and it well and truly pissed me off (as is apt to happen when people mess with my friends. Go figure). I think the only reason I kept my cool was because I used my Flonne journal to do all of this, and she doesn't have any angry icons. (Seriously, give me an icon set and I will abuse it like mad. Angry icons would have been rather bad in this instance.)

And now that it's over - or rather, now that I've refused point-blank to respond to any more commens on it (though I have received a rather nonsensical one about a donkey and five acres of land, WTF?) - I'm looking at it and wondering if I really should have participated. The answer is most likely "no," though I will admit I did enjoy parts of it. It just got frustrating at the end and was ugly the whole way through, so...no, not worth it there. Fun, but not a repeat gimmick.

My only consolation is, should F_W ever get ahold of it (and no, flist, please don't go telling F_W about it, I don't want it to drag in my other RP), then they can see all the former Econtra players being nice and civil and polite and the Econtra mods melting facebuckets again with their sarcasm.

...so if I've decided it wasn't worth it, why am I still so satisfied that I contributed that much? Not good on my part, I think. Just the slightest bit worrisome.

Comments

[tafkae.livejournal.com]

i learnt my lesson about 2891672489678396 times over though

[kiaxet]

But you do know WE DON'T BLAME YOU AT ALL, right?

[tafkae.livejournal.com]

WHY NOT?

[kiaxet]

BECAUSE YOU DIDN'T BRING THE WANK?

Honestly, everybody in Econtra got up in arms like mad over that. It's a secret. Those can get crazy sometimes. They just couldn't get over the fact that it was just a secret. You, on the other hand, were a good enough person to apologize for it (even though changing your mind after you post something is not a sin). They started the wank, and they had no right to tear into anybody over it.

It's like fandom and RP are the end of the world or something. They ain't. Don't worry about what Ankhi says, she doesn't know squat when it comes to people. We love you Kae, and like I said, we don't blame you at all.

[tafkae.livejournal.com]

To be fair, I wasn't apologizing for changing my mind. I was apologizing for taking so long to grow up and drop it. lol troll's remorse much?

It feels like it when fandom and RP are pretty much the only social life I've got. But thank you.

[kiaxet]

Oh. I guess I managed to misread things, hooray. :D;

And you weren't exactly the only one still watching the comm and lawling like mad. I'm glad you've made your decision, but there's no need to beat yourself up over anything pertaining to it.

...okay, we need to find you the local party scene or something. XD;

And hon, that's exactly what I'm here for - to keep you from beating yourself up over things that don't deserve anything more than a light slap on the wrist (if that). So, love - ♥! - and you know you can come to me for anything.

[princealia.livejournal.com]

I've learned I have to sit on my hands when it comes to shit at Fandom_secrets anyways because it's just another fandom_wank. It's a bunch of people who sit around tossing blank secrets of nothingness into the atmosphere to see how many people take the bite and yell over it.

It's a nice idea to just mindlessly say whatever and not have to put a face or name to it (although that's just cowardly, in my opinion), but at the same time, most of that shit is said just because. I doubt people really maen 90% of the things they put up there. They do it just so they can see what drama unfolds. KHFFRants was up there like...every week for a while. Someone would report it at the comm., people were angry, some people agreed, drama broke out at the comm. as well, etc. Everyone became irritated, including myself. After the 98237th post of "THEY'RE SO ELITIST, OMG. FEEL SORRY FOR ME AND MAH CONTROVERSIAL/RADICAL ZOMG OPINIONS? D:", though? I just laughed XD

And maybe somewhere down the line, after someone brings this rp drama up for the millionth time, you'll laugh, too

[kiaxet]

I've seen some pretty funny stuff at FS, which is why I'm still there.

Problem with this RP and its wank is, the RP's mod is completly nuts and caustic enough in her language and insults to melt a reinforced steel skyscraper. The wank is more heartless than your average Darkside in places and twice as nasty - it's only funny in bits and pieces.

And I wax unbelievably poetic at four in the morning, it seems.

I want that place down the line to come soon. :/

[princealia.livejournal.com]

If it's the chick I've read threads from, she makes me laugh XD

"I need opinions on how to fix this place!"
*gives some*
"stfu >:O"

I wouldn't give her that much attention. I bet in real life she's full of hot air XD. I say get out whatever you want to say on the subject and then leave it be.

[maqui]

You've got the right one.

She's the kind of person who (I'm not making this up) will badmouth you behind your back to your friends because you need to take a day off of RPing due to grieving on the birthday of a deceased loved one.

[princealia.livejournal.com]

...holy shit, what a bitch XD.

But see, I lol at her in that situation because she's stupid enough to say such things to your FRIENDs of all people. Either that, or she's fully aware of what she's doing and she's passive aggressive as hell because she wants it to trickle down to you instead of saying it to your face. Either way, that screams she's not worth the time.

[maqui]

Hehe, I don't doubt she wanted it to get back to me, actually. It happened about a month after I finally started fighting back against her, about a week and a half before I finally quit running her goddamn RP for her. She didn't much like me anymore at that point, because, horror of horrors, I had an opinion that didn't coincide with hers about how things were being run.

Not worth the time puts it mildly, in her case. I'm still trying to figure out where she was civil, to anyone, at any point, and where I, or anyone else who quit the place, happened to be uncivil. *shrugs*

[princealia.livejournal.com]

That sounds like the biggest thing I see coming from this. If you have a differing opinion from hers--WATCH OUT XD. Her post for "ideas" sounded more like a call for "Hey, tell me that I rock and if you don't, I R GUN EAT UR BABIES". It's ok if someone doesn't agree with you. Really. XD

I wasn't at the RP and everything I've seen probably has a bit of a biased view of those against her, but just reading through the threads on my own, even *I'm* wondering what the fuck her problem is. And she starts off everything with this un-needed bitchy stab with the way she words things. She's trying to be sarcastic and "tough shit" when it looks like she's riding into battle with a pencil when everyone else brought guns XD

[maqui]

Hahahaha, that's the most beautiful and accurate description ever. Everything's all well and good as long as you're being one of her sheep. The moment you voice an opinion, you've attacked her or something and she's justified in being a royal bitch.

I can assure you that the picture you've seen is pretty accurate. Here, you can look at the emails sent back and forth when I quit my mod position there. They're directly copy-pasted from my account, I didn't edit anything except to put it into a nice, friendly div to keep it from being all stretchy and ugly. Hehe.

[princealia.livejournal.com]

HAHAHAHA, what's funny is when I saw the opening of her response I said "...did she just stop reading her letter and start to respond in the middle of it?" and then you brought that up in your next repsonse XD. She sounds miserable at her own RP. "Thankless, tiresome, bottom-rung-of-the-ladder"...is that what she thinks of her job as mod? Really? Wow

And I wouldn't wanna "work out" something with her either. Her definition of "work out" seems to be "do it my way". I love how if you don't talk something out with her you're cowardly, but if you do, you won't get anywhere....like these e-mails for example. You can't win XD. The way she talks about quitting and people leaving sounds disgusting. It's like you're being pegged as being weaklings instead of staying there and putting up with her bullshit. Um, no. Sounds like she has a bunch of people kissing her ass :/

[overlords_wrath]

*ninja-ing in and lol on a rp journal but anyhoo /o/*

You totally hit the nail on the head. That is totally how it is. It's funny cause I read she'd wished we'd not run away and talked and worked things out. LOLOLOL Yeah, sure Ankhi. I akin talking to Ankhi to smashing your head against a cement wall. You get no where but for giving yourself a headache. I got msg'd once (after saying I give up amusingly) and got no where despite trying very hard to be understanding and her friend. :/ (for lulz \O_o/ )

It doesn't just sound like she as people kissing her ass... she DOES
....honestly, I have no idea how they don't see how she acts. It sure wasn't Kiaxet who was going around calling people "yappy bitches". -.-;

BUT, anyhoo... That's Ankhi for ya. \O_o/ She really is a kinda Dr. Jekyll and Mr Hyde person. She can be REALLY nice, and I liked her when she was nice, till I disagreed with her. >.<;;; I suppose it's all a matter of due time before some of the people on econtra left see what we realized. I didn't at first. Wasn't until she left the most nasty foul comment I'd ever read on another rp that she felt was ripping off Econtra that I began to wonder.

[kiaxet]

I still think I should make that "Yappy Bitch" icon and see who all wants to use it. I'd sure keep it around. X3

And some people just have a very nice set of rose-colored glasses. I kind of have to wonder if they get them custom-made or if it's natural.

I have to admit, I lauged at the "five acres for a donkey" comment. You'd need at least three donkeys for that amount of land. It's gotten nonsensical and I've gotten out. I say we go continue to have fun somewhere else~ :3

[princealia.livejournal.com]

She needs to understand how she's coming off in these situations and that while that whole "Let's talk it out" reasoning is nice, she's not coming off that way :/
(Oh, that's definitely lulz. She's snapped xD)

Oh jeez, why don't THEY just marry her xD. Aw man, when she said "I'm flattered but you're really not my type.", someone should have said "Yeah, you're not really mine either. Whiny psycho bitches aren't my thing. Fun to play with, but that's about it."

I say everyone should have left and left her fucking RP to herself. That way, the only person she'll have to talk the whole thing out with is herself.

[kiaxet]

Oh, it totally is. I tried not to name names because the thread's public, but there's really only one person who fits that particular description. XD;

I dunno, I'd love to meet her IRL. I bet she's a petty little person, and I think it'd be the funniest thing ever~

And I've stopped commenting. Done with that madness, back to the fun RP, thank you! :D

[ryuuzoku-aya.livejournal.com]

Yeaaaaah, there's a reason I don't read that comm anymore or get terribly involved in LJ RP. It just makes me realize that a lot of people out there you're rubbing elbows with are enormous assholes. :/

[grazie.livejournal.com]

Count me as done with it. I'm tired of getting my feelings hurt.

[kiaxet]

...D:

You know, I've yet to see them say a degrading thing about you that's true. Screw the bloody know-nothings and hang out with your friends. We love you. ♥